heading home for xmas

I’m heading home for xmas and spending a few days with the family, it will be my first trip home since moving away (a whole month ago, LOL!). I hope I don’t run into the ex, there’s a chance it might happen but I think if I stay out of town then I might be able to avoid him. My cousins are coming up for a few days with my uncle, I’m looking forward to seeing them as it’s been a long time since I saw them last. I offered to give S a lift back home as well but she said she’ll drive down herself as she’s working most of the way through xmas and new year because there’s big money in it with all the tourists around. I hope her car doesn’t crap out on her, it’s been so unreliable lately. I’ll be back after xmas, adios and merry xmas to anyone that's reading this!

just cruising along

Haven’t seen much of S lately, she’s been either at work or sleeping or banging this guy of hers, Turk’s friend. I don’t really like him that much he’s a bit strange, but he seems to be very into her. S is a striking looking natural blonde, she’s a little on the short side, she’s not skinny, but what she does have is the most mesmerising bedroom eyes and a sexy look that guys seem to fall all over themselves for. She likes guys, and girls too if they’re gorgeous.

I'm really enjoying living in this city, although I’m going to have to get a job in the new year, I think the end of Jan or maybe Feb so that I don’t spend too much of my savings on living, I’d rather have a back up in case something unforeseen happens, and be able to add to my savings for when I want to buy my own place. I feel so lazy though. I've joined a gym and already I’m seeing results. I just need to eat a bit healthier, it’s too easy to grab fast food here whereas back home it’s so small there are no maccas or kfc’s or pizza huts nearby, just a corner shop that does takeaway fried foods and coffees.

propositioned

Drove S to work again tonight, the owners were there and they both asked me to work! I take that as a compliment, natch, although it could be that they’re understaffed or something. Don’t think I’d be able to do that for a job though.

world's oldest profession

Tonight I drove S to work. She works in a massage parlour (brothel) down the coast. She told me she was a receptionist but has really been working as a prostitute for about a year. I had a bit of a problem with it initially but you know what, I'm cool with it now, it’s her life after all, so whatever she wants to do, she says there’s a lot of money in it, but I don’t understand how she can always be so broke if she makes lots of money? Where does it all go? I mean, I know she’s paying off a block of land, and she buys a lot of clothes and stuff, but she’s never got any money or that’s what she says. Maybe she does have money and she’s saying she doesn’t so that she doesn’t dip into her savings or something?

I went inside the place where she works, from the back door. It must be above a shop or something, cos I went up lots of stairs on the outside, and there’s a camera on the back door and the metal door is locked so they’ve got to know you to let you in. Inside there is a hallway that goes straight up the middle and all the way to the front with rooms on either side all the way along. There must be about a dozen rooms or more in all, each with a different colour or theme, and each has an ensuite bathroom, a spa and of course a big bed.

Further along the hallway there’s a door which I found out leads out to the waiting area and a small bar, that’s where the “clients” arrive from outside and wait to see the ladies to choose one. I didn't get to see out there as there was someone waiting. There’s also a big room with loads of washing machines and the walls are lined with shelving full of sheets and towels and cleaning products. You can walk through this room to a dressing room with lockers, mirrors and dressing tables along all the walls. Walk through the dressing room is a little kitchen area then the room the receptionist sits and then there’s a big loungeroom with some double and triple sofas, there was a girl dressed up and fast asleep on one of them. There's also a big tv, a dvd player, and some gaming equipment. The lounge area is accessible through the reception and also from a hallway behind the reception. There are cameras everywhere, and a lot of video surveillance screens in the reception area.

I met a few of the girls, naturally I only know their working names – Tori, Tenille, Angel, Jazz, Courtney, Lisa, Alexis, and S and M were there as well as D. There were others in the rooms apparently, with clients. D is driving S home in the morning, and I’ll have to drive her back again tomorrow, her car is in the shop. It was an interesting experience, one I never in a million years thought I’d ever have.

oops she's done it again

I did it again, brought another guy home. Yaron is a very cute Israeli I met last night, with a hot bod. He’s into gymnastics and oh boy did we do the rough and tumble round the bedroom last night! It was good (but not great) sex, he even smacked my ass which I totally didn’t expect at the time that he did it but I liked it. But it was fun. I didn’t get his number, or ask his last name, that makes it a real one nighter and I don’t even feel bad about it!

my first one

Well I did it, I took a guy home, my first one night stand ever. It felt a bit strange, still does. I guess it will get better and easier with time (and practice) or at least that’s what I’m hoping. I’ve met this guy a few times before, I’ll call him Turk. He was a fairly good kisser but his cock was totally disappointing, not very big and he didn’t know how to use it, but I’m used to ten and a half inches so maybe I’m being unrealistic to expect more? S took his mate home, which is a bit weird now but it felt ok at the time, maybe that’s cos I was tipsy last night. I won’t fuck him again although I’ll probably bump into him a lot from now on. That’s how these things work though isn’t it? Hope it’s not too uncomfortable.

educational

God I’m learning a lot in this city, I've become so much more street smart since moving here not even a month ago but I reckon I've still got a lot to learn. Teri is into the white stuff too, they offered me some but I didn’t want anything. They didn’t push me do any which I respect. Met the owner of a dance club in the CBD, Teri and her friend Boz know him, he was quiet, bought us a drink and kept his eye on what was happening in his club. The music was awesome, I’m defo heading back there again.

private party with marty

OMG Marty lives at his Dad’s but get this, he doesn’t live in the house he lives out the back in a caravan. Dinner was nice, he cooked a simple bolognaise which was delic, and then we watched a movie. I’d had a couple of glasses of a lovely red wine I took up, and since I don’t drink and drive, I was planning on taking him up on the offer to crash the night (and maybe doing a little more than sleeping), that is until we went to retire and he took me out the back door of the house... to his caravan. He sleeps in a caravan. It just didn’t feel right, so we fooled around a little then fell asleep still fully clothed. It was a bit weird this morning being in a caravan and still having to go inside the house to pee, I got out of there and drove home, and here I am writing about it. I think I won’t see him again, even though he’s already messaged me twice since I left. I feel how boys feel when they’ve slept with a girl then they lose interest, hah!

Going into town with Teri tonight and one of her friends, should be a good night.

stripper boy

Marty called me, we went out for a coffee before he had to drive back to where he lives (the next big city an hour away – bummer!). He seems nice, and he’s a good kisser too. Might see him again, he’s invited me to his place he wants to cook me dinner. Score!

have you ever done any modelling?

The little party that we had at ours before going out was interesting, there was S, M and another girl from their work D who is a lot of fun, they were all doing lines of speed off our coffee table. They were going to try to get ecstasy or something as well but couldn’t find anyone with anything. They were talking about this guy they all knew, John, who apparently always has good gear and spends money on the girls he likes. Sounded a bit shallow and fake to me but it was interesting to hear them talk about him. We went out and had a good time, but they were going fst the whole time and I got so tired so I had to go home before them, I didn’t have anything, I’m a bit scared to try it to be honest, it’s not my thing. I had fun anyway.

This guy I met tried to tell me he’s a talent scout from a modelling agency, said I’ve a great look, would I be interested in a modelling career, then he told me his business were out in his car. Like yeah right as though I’m going to believe all of that, I wasn’t born yesterday, dickhead! If he was really a professional he would have had his cards on him! Loser. I had a bad feeling about him and he was sleazy looking so there was no fucking way I was gonna go anywhere with him. Not a chance! I wonder how many gullible chicks he gets to go out to his car by saying that? And then what does he try to do with them when he’s out there? Eurgh!!

a spot of shopping

Bought some fab new clothes so gave them a run last night and they had male strippers on at the club around the corner from us, woooo! Met one of them, Marty, he asked me for my number. See if he calls, not holding my breath, he is a stripper after all. Am out again this weekend, but I’m so tired at the moment. S is having a little party at ours with some girls she knows from work, then we’re going to go out afterwards. I’m going to get some sleep in preparation for a big weekend.

fun on a friday night out

Had a cool night out on Friday night, a friend of S who I’ll call M introduced us to the owner of the club just down the road from our place, he’s an interesting guy, think he must be Italian. He gave us free drinks all evening, and kept coming over to talk to us. Found out my flatmate S works at a massage parlour down the coast which is interesting. A massage parlour, hmmmm. She says she didn’t tell me cos she wasn’t sure how I’d take it, so I guess she’s told me now cos we’re already living together and she feels more comfortable/confident of judging my reactions. I don’t really care what she does as long as she pays her share of the bills and is honest with me. I told her that too.

night out with nigel

Teri and I met at the bar where she works; it’s a funky little place inside a food court, very cool. The other guys that work there are a bit weird though, they just don’t seem trustworthy, I dunno, there’s just something about them. Maybe it’s sleaze factor, I’m not sure exactly what it is though. We went out after she finished work, had a lot of fun dancing and talking to people. I kissed a very cute guy named Nigel, he was paying us so much attention, bought us lots of drinks and stuff, it was nice but it felt a bit like giving him a reward after spending all that money and time on us. I didn’t take him home or anything though; definitely didn’t feel ready for that quite yet aside of it not feeling like the right thing to do. I stopped in the middle of kissing him cos it wasn’t feeling right. I know it was all in my head, I hope I get past all that. He was very nice about it, and said he was just enjoying the company of two beautiful ladies... awww!

I get the feeling I’ll be able to go out any night of the week in this place and there will be a crowd of people partying somewhere. That’s so opposite from my town which is purely once a week on a Saturday night, if you’re lucky. This place rocks. Yeehah!

grass

Went to beach with Jules today, then a late lunch at one of the local restaurants where I had the best Caesar salad I've ever had! Our flat has shaped up nicely, but S has a bong which she’s left in the loungeroom a few times now, I didn’t know she was into drugs, it stinks. I've never even smoked a cigarette...

it's a small world

I feel alive! I am loving living here so far. I’m getting my bearings, the sun has been out the whole time pretty much, people are happy and look healthy and are generally so much better looking here, I mean, I've seen some truly beautiful looking people here, both guys and girls. Even the oldies are good looking in this place, LOL!

I met some wicked girls out with S and her friend L on the weekend - Teri and Jules. Teri I met through another guy friend of hers, John who came up and introduced himself to me, he introduced me to Teri and they said they thought I looked like I was having a lot of fun. Teri and I stayed back after the others went home, she’s nice and a bit mad like me. Jules I met in the ladies bathroom, we just started talking she’s a backpacker originally from Nottingham, very cool chick. Later I’m standing there having a bit of a boogie at our table and I hear this guys voice yell “What the fuck are you doing here?!!” I turned around and it was this guy named Simon who I often saw out on a Saturday night at the bigger town our group used to go out at, I had never actually met him before though. I’d seen him cos he’s an awesome dancer, you just can’t miss him. Anyway I was a bit shocked that he was there and we got talking, and then he introduced me to all his friends, they were a big group. Turns out he’s from this city and is up visiting his parents for a while. It’s a small world! Hope he calls me soon to catch up again, he’s very cute and I like his friends they were all really nice.

L is an interesting one. She drives a small convertible car which apparently her “sugar daddy” gave her, but she insists she hasn’t had sex with him. He’s some rich Asian dude, he gives her jewellery, takes her out for expensive dinners, gives her money for clothes and stuff. I guess if she’s not having sex with him then he’s basically paying her for her company. She’s nothing flash to look at, she’s definitely not ugly though, she’s a cute blonde and apparently she has a kid somewhere back in her home country, I don’t think she’s in touch with the kid much. I find that pretty sad, really. I’m not a big fan of L, in case you were wondering. I find her a bit shallow, even fake, fake hair, fake nails, fake tan, lots of makeup, lots of jewellery, she wants to have surgery on her body – boob job, botox and something else on her face, liposuction on her middle and hips, I've nothing against surgery if it’s something you need or if you’ve done everything you can to get rid of the fat but it’s being persistent, but she’s not even trying to diet and she already has a nice pair of puppies, they’re high and perky and a nice shape (especially considering she’s had a kid, she doesn’t tell anyone about that, but she’ll show her tits to just about anyone, seriously!) but she wants them bigger. She’s just a bit too plastic for me.

hello new!

I've moved in! I am now officially a city slicker, LOL!! I packed everything I own, which isn’t much, into my little white hatchback this morning and now here I am. S has gone to work, and I’m too exhausted anyway from moving so we’re going to go out Friday and Saturday nights, so I’m sitting on my new beds pilfering free internet from one of the neighbours who don’t have a secure wireless network, it’s not very strong so I might get booted off soon. New ‘beds’ yes you read correctly, my room has 2 single bunk beds in it so I've pushed them together to make one huge bed, it works for me. Plenty of room to roll about, now I just need to find someone to roll about with. I don’t know how I feel about one night stands, I've only slept with one guy and I was with him for four years before I broke up with him, he’s a nice guy but it didn’t feel right especially after I caught him kissing another girl, and I needed to move away from him cos he won’t leave me alone. Anyways.... I know there’s more out there and much more to life than what I've done so far.

Moving here I've really had to acknowledge how little stuff I own. My wardrobe has all my clothes hanging, it’s not a big space and there’s only one tenth of the space used, and 8 pairs of shoes. Sad, I know, but I guess I have an excuse to go shopping once I start working again.

I’ll be back after the weekend, I’m going to finish settling in, try to get some sleep in my new bed, and over the next few days I want to spend some time out in the sun and out exploring my new neighbourhood, as well as check out the local nightlife!!

farewell old

I’m sitting at home waiting for someone from the group I hang out with to pick me up. For once I don’t have to drive, I could do some drinking tonight as it’s my farewell. I don’t think I’ll drink, and if I’m totally honest I don’t actually feel like being driven either, I prefer to drive; my car is my independence. If something happens and I’m not comfortable, I can just jump in my car and drive myself away from there. The group I hang around with are not exactly the most responsible of individuals but they are fun...

Rach is a teaze, she’ll be on the dance floor and will back up to a guy, any guy, and dance up against him, then next thing they’ll be lip locked. She does this with usually with a minimum of 3 guys a night, and I think her record is in double figures. Traci is basically a slut, simple as that. She’ll get with nearly any guy, I've caught her having sex out the back of the pub against the fence or the wall more times than I care to remember. Jenine is a virgin, she’s short, dumpy, plain looking, and really quite immature, but deep down she’s a sweet girl. In my opinion she tries too hard, and she gets taken advantage of a bit, so she’s lucky that there aren’t any really nasty people around here, everyone knows everyone so you just don’t get away with too much bad stuff. Greg is alright, he’s on the young side too (read: immature), like Jenine. He’s ok looking whereas Janine has had the misfortune to be hit by the ugly stick. Randy is actually older than me by a few months, and was a year ahead of me at school. He’s a nice looking guy, not the type I would go for though or maybe it’s cos I grew up with him and I know him too well. He likes the younger girls which I think is why he’s always seems to have a new girlfriend, but they never last very long cos they are a bit unstable. The girls he goes out with are usually quite attractive, and all he wants to do is settle down and start a family, but it hasn’t happened for him yet. I think he’s too nice, if that’s possible? There are a few other randoms that hang around, but none that I would go out with on their own.

Sounds like someone’s arrived, gotta run!

setting up house

S moved in today. She’s connecting everything and I move in next week, woohoo!
S was in my younger brothers year at school, and she attended a club we went to as well. I don’t remember how I actually ended up meeting her, but I guess I somehow came to know her at school (or know of her) then properly met at a club outing. I ended up working in the shop her parents bought for her so that she had a job near home, that’s about all you can do to get work around here – own a business. There are not a lot of job opportunities in our town, unfortunately. S has a job in my new city, she’s doing evening reception work at some place, actually I don’t know where she works, she said down the coast a bit from where our new place is. I’ll have to ask her.

preparing for independence

Did a spot of shopping today and bought a few bits and pieces I need for my move – just some house stuff and some personal stuff, nothing major, our place is fully furnished even with all the kitchen things apparently, but I’m gonna buy a lasagne dish, I can’t do without one even if there’s already one there I like my own dish. Shame I can’t take my mother’s, it’s the best.

animals

Guys around here really are completely fucked in the head, I mean honestly, on which planet is it acceptable to pinch a girl on the ass or molest a girl who is dancing? Both those things happened to me last night. The group I hang with decided to go out in the nearest biggest town to where we live, so we drove up there in a couple of cars (I drove, natch!). It was early, like about 8pm so I thought I’d have a couple of small wines early on so they’re out of my system by the time we drive back (the place shuts at 2.30am). We had scored a good table, one of the benefits of getting there early, so I went to the bar to get myself a small white wine. I’m standing there waiting to be served and I feel a pinch on my ass. This infuriates me, I can’t stand disrespectful men so I swing around and throw a punch, which hurt my hand, he was a solid bastard standing behind me with a girl, I told him not to fucking touch me, and the girl with him laughed at him and told him it serves him right for doing it. He apologised and said I have a great ass and he couldn’t resist. WTF? Where do these imbeciles get off thinking that a pinch on the arse is a compliment, or even the type of attention that a girl wants? Maybe some slags like it but I certainly do NOT and I don’t look like a fucking slag thank you very much.

Oh and that wasn’t all, later in the night when we were all up dancing, some idiot grabs me by the hips from behind, leans around to my front and tries to kiss me on my snatch. He gave me the shock of my life, so my natural reaction was to smack him on the head while he was down there, hard. I nearly knocked him over, fucking wanker. I think it was only the fact that he had hold of me that keep him upright otherwise I’d have knocked him on the floor, so I went after him and slapped him across the face as hard as I could when he stopped and turned around. In hindsight, I was probably lucky he didn’t hit me back, he was pretty drunk, but all the guys that were standing around watching gave him so much shit that I reckon they would have completely had him if he’d even raised his hand at me.

I stalked off and sat down for a while, I was too angry to keep dancing. A couple of girls I don’t know came over and said they saw what happened and it was good to see a girl stick up for herself, they were nice we had a bit of a chat and they bought me a diet coke. Some guys also commented, they said it was funny seeing a girl smack a guy, but in a good way and that he definitely deserved it. Aside from all that drama it was an ok night out, shame it takes an hour’s drive to get there and then to get home, after dropping everyone one off I got in at 4am.

yay!

We’ve got a new place! S made an offer to the landlords and they accepted it so she’s going to move in in 2 weeks as she’s got to give notice where she is. I’ll move in a week later. Wow I can’t wait, it’s finally really happening! City life, here I come!!

things are moving fast

S thinks she’s found us a place, it’s got 2 double bedrooms both with ensuites and is only a walk to the beach and one of the cool night clubs is close by, wicked!! It’s not too expensive too which is good, S said it’s similar to her current place so that’s good but I don’t like the area she’s living in at the moment apparently it’s not safe. Thank god I didn’t know that until recently, cos last time I went out with her and L we went to a night club where L used to see the owner and I got so rat arsed drinking illusions that I got lost and found myself in the foyer of a hotel, I think it must have been the hotel above the club. No idea how I got there, I think I took a wrong turn somewhere on the way back from the ladies. I made it back to S’s place but couldn’t get the key in the fucking door to let myself in, I could hear her cat inside meowing at me, but all I could do was sit on the floor and laugh at myself until I sobered up enough to get inside. I spewed all day that next day, I was so ill, and the bloody phone wouldn’t stop. I don’t usually drink much, never really been into it, so I guess you could say that was the first time I've ever been drunk. I've only ever been tipsy before that. Not sure I’ll do that again in a hurry that’s for sure! I don’t like the feeling of losing control.

I love living at my parents place, but it’s time for me to move away from this area. Don’t get me wrong, I’d live at home for the rest of my life if they lived in a big city, and I guess that’s purely a testament to how well we get along and they let me do my own thing in peace, but they don’t live even remotely near to what I would consider modern civilization. In fact, where I’m moving to next is 3 hours drive away from here! They really do live in the middle of “nowhere”, in the sticks, but it’s a very beautiful place, this “nowhere”, and aside of the all the small town gossip and lack of things to do, I guess it’s a great place to live if you have a family or are retired. But for a young single person, it’s boring. The only positives for staying are my immediate family are here, and the beaches are so close, but there are plenty of beaches closer to the bigger cities. Kids finish school and move away to go to college / university, because there is nowhere nearby to go. Sometimes they come back once they’re married and have a family, but more often they stay away and settle elsewhere, which is why the population never seems to grow. The only growth area is pensioners (although they move here then die cos, well, they’re old and that’s life), cos it’s such a nice place to come here to retire – lots of oldies live here so there are plenty of people from around a similar generation, there’s golf and fishing, lawn bowls and RSL’s, and other various clubs and things to do for the oldies. Maybe I’ll retire back here, but for now it’s too small, at this stage of my life I need more!

exciting!

Wow, now that I've decided I’m actually going to do this I’m getting excited. And very nervous, I guess that’s to be expected though right? Called S and she’s actually looking to move out of where she is and get a place so we’re going to go in together which is good, I won’t have to worry about looking for a place she’s going to start this afternoon and find something to suit us. So I’ll just have to get up there, find myself a job and get my bearings in the new area. I've got some savings so I think I’ll take some nice time off first, meet people and go partying and just relax and chill out (chillax!), I haven’t had a holiday in ages, not a proper one anyway only a weekend away here and there but that’s not really a holiday is it?

a hard day's work

Tough day at work today and I’m exhausted so this won’t be very long. Had a woman in today who tried to steal some things from us, I caught her, loser! I hate people like that, if you can’t afford it then you can’t have it. Period. Go make your own money instead of stealing from someone who is working hard to make theirs.


Enough ranting. Going to bed now.

decisions...

After much deliberation I've finally come to the conclusion that I need to get out. Out of this small town, take my first steps towards big city life. It’s something I've always wanted to do – move to the city, get a social life and a job that pays me enough to support myself and save up to buy my own place. My home-town is a very small mainly farming community(about 2500 people spread out over a large area), if I move to a capital straight up I’m pretty sure it would eat me alive and I’m not sure I’m confident enough to go there yet. It’s a scary thought... No, I’ll start off somewhere with a bit less size to it, I’ll move to a small city of about 1 million that’s not too far away, stay there a while then graduate to the capital. I need to get out of here: ex-fiancée won’t leave me alone, not happy working where I am, none of my friends live here anymore, I’m so bored, bored, bored of this boring, mundane life!!! I want to live in lots of places and go travelling and see amazing sights, meet people and experience different cultures. In this country you can drive for 20 hours and still hear the same accent and the people are the same, I want so much more than that. A girl I’m friends with S is living where I want to move to so I might ask if I can stay with her for a few days until I get sorted with a room of my own.

Went out Saturday night with a group of friends, actually they’re more like acquaintances as nobody I’m close to lives around here anymore. They are all younger than me but I look younger than all of them which is a bit strange. We had dinner at the Chinese restaurant, it was ok, then went to one of the three pubs in our town, the owner has tapped into the bored youth around here and puts on a band on every other Saturday night. The band was good too, I went to school with the drummer he was a cutie back then and they played good music, but I liked the dance music they put on in the breaks. I think this puppy is gonna go clubbing a LOT when she gets to the city!

Kissed a cute boy that night too, win! Can’t wait to get to the city though, the guys are much better looking there. Didn’t drink except for one wine, I prefer to drive as my parents live 15 minutes drive from both the towns nearby and you just can’t get taxi’s in a small place like this, but that’s ok I wasn’t hung over at all yesterday which is good cos I had to work, yuck!